Monday, May 4, 2015

My Time In the Affair by Stylo Fantome

I made a conscious decision to cheat on my husband.
Now, before you judge me, hear my story. Hear how much I'm like you, how similar my thoughts are to your own. Yes, I'm a horrible person. Yes, I've done horrible things. Yes, I don't deserve forgiveness. Yes, bad things happened because of my actions.
But I'm willing to bet I've done things that maybe, just maybe, you have thought of doing.
Maybe, just maybe, you're not as innocent as you'd like to think.
Or maybe I'm not so guilty ...
WARNING: This book involves CHEATING. The word AFFAIR is in the title. The main character has an AFFAIR. In the synopsis (directly above), she states that she intentionally has an AFFAIR. If you don't like CHEATING, then you have been VERY WELL warned. Also, this book is primarily written in the third-person narrative.

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5 I Love this book and YES it has cheating Stars
No, I didn’t get abducted by aliens nor did my brains get eaten by zombies. You are reading this correctly. I am giving a five star rating on a book with cheating. Not just any form of cheating, but in-your-face, I-am-cheating-on-my-husband cheating.
**GASP** So all of you “I don’t read books with cheating” hear me out before you say no.
Yes there is cheating and no the husband isn’t an evil villain that deserves it, BUT the story is really beautiful. 
Keep on reading my review… I promise you will be okay.
I can’t relate to the story because I’m completely utterly in love with my husband, BUT I love reading the insights from a woman who isn’t happy with her marriage.  I have a few friends that are divorced or wanting to divorce. I could never fully empathize with them, but with My Time in the
Affair, I felt for Mischa.
And you will too.
Mischa married her high school sweet heart. They were the perfect couple and only naturally they get married.  Years later Mischa doesn’t feel the same towards her husband. People change, lives change and with that people grow apart.
Sure Mischa could have said something, sure she could have left her husband, but it’s never as easy as it seems.  Personally I feel like the act of actually getting divorce is NOT as easy as it seems or as we read in books. It’s not like having a boyfriend and just breaking up with them. There are serious consequences to getting a divorce and I completely understand Mischa (even though I’ve never been in that position).
Mischa is stuck in a rut and she has an itch and Tal is the person to scratch that.
Mischa has a conscience. She doesn’t go into the affair lightly. She understands how wrong cheating is and I really enjoyed reading her inner monologue. Tal is a free spirit, aloof and mysterious.  I find him sexy and intriguing.  I kept wondering what he does for a living and how he spends his days. I loved Tal.
And stop thinking you’re a horrible person. You’re not. He’s not. You’re just not in love. That’s not horrible. It’s just sad.
My Time in the Affair doesn’t have much angst and it’s one of the reasons why I really loved it. It was more about the feelings and relationship between Mischa and Tal, than silly stuff.  The husband is present in the story and I don’t want to give much away, only that he is not a bad guy, but you won’t pity him or think Mischa is this completely horrible person.
The book shifts a lot and you never know where it’s going. It’s so fast paced and I couldn’t get enough. I was devouring the pages like a mad woman and no one was going to stop me from reading! Stylo never disappointed me.
I was so scared to read this, I actually asked Stylo if I could handle it. She told me I would be fine. And believe or not. I was. I was completely and totally fine. In fact, she opened my eyes to this world. A world with book with cheating and me loving him.

How much I wanted him took me by surprise. I didn't want to feel that way – I'd been telling the truth. I wasn't looking for another relationship. Clearly, I wasn't good at relationships, and had no business entering into an already-fucked-up-relationship without ending my last totally-fucked-up-relationship.

But it was like he understood me. I could say anything to him, literally anything, and he just got it. He didn't think I was a horrible human being for cheating on my husband. He didn't care that I was married. Didn't care that I was emotionally stunted most of the time, and physically inhibited some of the time. All he cared about was being with me. Everything else, that was just background noise.
I hadn't ever known that kind of freedom, to just be myself, one hundred percent. Say whatever I want, do whatever I want, in all situations. You just can't be like that with most people, there's always a filter that needs to be in place. But not with Tal.

Not in any situations.

I was drunk on him. High on him. I wanted to swallow him down, inhale him, inject him. I wanted him to live under my skin and change my DNA. I wanted to live in his air and breathe his passion.
I thought maybe, just maybe, I could overdose on him. If I could just take him one more time, and shut my eyes, and it would be the last time, with anyone, with anything, that would be alright. Guilt would be gone. Hurt would be gone. Confusion would be gone. Oppression would be gone. Obsession would be gone.

My memory would be his, I would only exist in his mind, and that was fine.
It was the only place I wanted to be, anymore.


Crazy woman living in an undisclosed location in Alaska (where the need for a creative mind is a necessity!), I have been writing since ..., forever? Yeah, that sounds about right. I have been told that I remind people of Lucille Ball - I also see shades of Jennifer Saunders, and Denis Leary. So basically, I laugh a lot, I'm clumsy a lot, and I say the F-word A LOT.

I like dogs more than I like most people, and I don't trust anyone who doesn't drink. No, I do not live in an igloo, and no, the sun does not set for six months out of the year, there's your Alaska lesson for the day. I have mermaid hair - both a curse and a blessing - and most of the time I talk so fast, even I can't understand me.

Yeah. I think that about sums me up.


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